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Feb 22

the way you look at her

You may not like her or to say you hated her, all she ever is was an immature little girl who does not believe in God and pail her place up with all the junk she bought with her parents’ money.  You may be receiving weird looks from her while you were holding a bible and read it to your boyfriend and hoping he would be a godly Christian as you. She might be giving you doubts about your faith while you’re holding your cross and pray all night. Or, she would be on your nerve while you were talking to your boyfriend crying about him going away with navy and hearing her singing “ just a dream” in the background. You knew what the song was about the girl’s boyfriend’s funeral, but you just don’t need that much pressure.

You get extremely annoyed when she questions Christianity, just because she is from a country that doesn’t believe in it. At that time, all you want to do is to run up to her, slap her on the mouth and telling her that god is everything, because that’s what you believe in. Or that might not be the only time you want to slap her, maybe the time she didn’t appreciate you did a hand full of silver wears for your lazy roommates and pull some kind of excuses like she had done plenty or your dirty dishes. You knew that was non-sense, you just left them there for a while because you enjoy doing dishes and wanted to do lots of those; the crazy girl just happened to did them before you could get to it.

Maybe what frustrates you the most was at night, around ten or eleven, you want to go to sleep because is more important than anything to talk to your boyfriend in the morning around six, but she does not want to turn the light off and insist on you wearing an eye mask. You know you hate eye masks because that would make you look like an old lady. Eventually she had to selfish enough to do her homework and ignore the fact that you have to get up early in the morning, so you put on the mask. You might be the saying something sarcastic so she would feel bad but you know that would make her turn the light off and does her homework in the living room.

You maybe want the world to be as mature and as hard working as you are, or maybe more responsible such as turning the light off at night while you want to sleep or maybe believe in god even. You maybe writing little lines from the bible and tape it allover the place to serve your god, or anything, just make that little girl grow up to become a mature adult like you.

her in my eyes

I don’t think I like her, she is nothing like me, a Chinese, crazy girl. I never like the way she looks at me when I pray or reading my bible; I could see the disgusted look she has in her eyes while I read my bible to my boyfriend on the phone. I have a boyfriend, he is away for the navy, I don’t like it when I was crying about him going away with her singing “just a dream” in the background. I know what the song mean, the artist lost her boyfriend in the army; I don’t need to be reminded with that.

I don’t think she knows how lucky she has had it; she has a boyfriend who is a Catholic. I would love to be able to talk about the love I have for God with my boyfriend, all she ever does was to refuse to go to church with her family and trying to talk him out of following god’s step. I don’t understand why she would do that while I’m trying to put god back in my boyfriend’s life.

She is a slob and a shopaholic. I tried my best to keep my place clean and organized, but by the end of the day, she will be coming back with a big shopping bag full of stuff and attempt to fit all of those useless stuff in this small area. Her place is a dump, no matter how hard she tries to clean it up but she has way too many things.

I can’t stand noises, but her and my other roommate never shut up. I like my sleeps, I like to get to bed early and have a nice fresh start in the morning. She always has plenty excuses about going to bed late such as we are 19; it’s the age to stay up late and be happy.

I know what I want, sometime I fell like she is only a kid, she has the most unreasonable requests such as asking me to leave the room while she has her boyfriend over or being upset at while I told everyone I did their dishes because of their laziness they failed to do so.

I realize this world need mature people just like I need to deal with one, instead one of those little girls who is a non-believer who goes out and waste her youth. Why can’t people all grow up soon enough to realize how much do we need god in our live.

Feb 08

my paper

NaiNan, a place I started to write about when I got the topic, I thought a place that is so beautiful and so peaceful would certainly deserve to be write about. That was until I found out that I had understood the topic wrong. Even it was a great vacation or maybe the most memorable one, thou it did not have anything excited happened that was worth writhing about, or at least I couldn’t make enough words to describe it in my lack of vocabulary compare to other English expert who can make a five pages paper about eating dinner.

Then I started to thought to myself about what to write about or where to write about that was so exciting or something that really happened in one place. In my memory, a worth writing thing that have happened mostly happened in several different places as time goes by. As I kept searching in my memory, I thought about China, a time I couldn’t have forgotten, the time I walked with the team on my Grandma’s funeral, how upset everyone was and how I felt. I remembered that I was one of her favorite grand daughter and how much she had cared for me.

There wasn’t much to write about the funeral either considering it was a small, plain event; it was although memorable, for all the times she was with me. I did not write much about what was going on during the way we were walking to her funeral, but I added lots of memories I had with her; the memories that were jinxed by the surroundings.

Maybe it was not exactly what I was suppose to do with my paper, but for me, it is what belongs to my heart and I wish to share with everyone and I will apologies for my poorly written paper to insult this memory.

Feb 07

Home sick

Chinese New Year, Valentines day, funny enough they are on the same day this year; I got on the internet, the main arguments were about where to spend it, whether with girlfriend or parents.

Chinese New Year is a big celebration in China; it is the time of the year when the families get together and celebrate. It is a fun holiday for children, because it is a day they can run a round eating delicious candies and wishing adults a happy new year, and collect the New Years money the adults give out. They also could wear pretty new clothes because it is a new year; therefore, there should be new clothes. Decorating houses it’s also a big deal in China. In southern China, it is warm as spring by this time, people would buy good smelling flowers and orange trees to decorate their places, in China, orange represents gold, which means wealth.

Last Friday, another Chinese girl and I were at the Asian market getting ready for this New Year. We talked about how we celebrated in back when we were with our families; I started to have tears in my eyes, I never realized how much I love my family until it is the time to get together and celebrate this special day. As for those who are trying to decide when to spend this double special day, I wish that they would realize how lucky they are to have a family with them.

We ate so much food that night, dumplings, fish, duck, meatballs, and so on, they are all traditional Chinese food, but no matter how good the food taste, they will never be as good as mother’s, nor the holiday is the same as home.